I have been wanting to update this post for about a week or so. The problem is that I didn't quite know how to say what I'm feeling. Also, I feel kinda overwhelmed with the stuff that has happened over the past 3 or 4 months and most of it has been a continuation of the most previous post.

I like to feel like I am able to explain some of the things that happen to me rationally but sometimes I can't. Recently, some things that happened are soo out of the ordinary and so beyond my imagination that I can't even begin to wrap my head around them. Honestly, part of me feels like it would just be better to try to forget all about them but I can't decide if that's the right thing to do. I'm know I'm being vague, that is my intention. I'm not trying spill my life on this thing. I'm just using this whole blog thing to help me sort out my thoughts and help me to think through things way more clearly than my clouded mind can.

Sticking to my goal of this blog, I'm keeping this thing about Christ. I'm not gonna blow up my own blog writing about selfish things revolving all about me me me. I'm trying to present these things in such a way that I can understand how God is working in certain tough situations. I know way more than ever how God has reasons behind everything. The problem is, however, that the good isn't always so evident and clear in the moment of the tough situation(s). I want to be honest here and this is undoubtably the reason for my current state of overwhelmingness (is that a word??) and confusion is that I haven't been in the Word daily like I've wanted to be. Part of the reason is that this situation has pushed me away from God (yeah I'm being vague...I'll explain more in future posts). I think it is only fair to me and my readers (as if anyone reads this thing lol...but seriously, I really don't care if anyone reads this)...ok ok ok, back on topic. I think it's only fair that I get in the word over this before I really start to ask questions for self-discovery. Through the Word and prayer is the only way God is gonna speak to me (although I wish he had some form of tangible communication I.e. facebook, texting, a megaphone, etc.). However, this isn't the only thing I'm going through. I'm also trying to figure out why people act the way they do (like in the workplace) and why this world works the way it does. That sounds ambiguous but it's hard to explain. I'll talk more about it later as soon as I slowly begin to sort it all out in my head (lol).

Anyway, that's enough for now. I just felt really led to update before I went to bed (don't believe what the time says at the bottom of this post...I know its not gonna be right). The time is about 12:12am so if it says 4:27am, don't think I'm some kind of insomniac lol.